I am sorry that I haven't posted much lately. I have started working again and I am having a hard time jumping back into the music library but I am hoping to get there next week. I decided I would write something tonight. Because tomorrow is the, if I am doing my math right, tenth anniversary of my wedding or would be if I was still married. Instead it is almost the 3rd anniversary of my divorce. It is interesting to me because up until about a week ago I had not really even thought of it. But a friend of mine got married last Friday and that brought back some memories. Most of them good. But I am hoping I can stave off the emotional meltdown by throwing some songs up and getting some of this out of me.
I am not sure what that means but I hope the music can let me just not dwell on what might have been or what was and instead focus on the present.
I am just going to be throwing up some songs that mean something to me.
This song hurts so much. But it is a good kind of hurt.
Sometimes I do wish nothing but the best. Sometimes I do not. Sometimes I just want to wallow in it and be resigned to being alone.
I hate to get into the psychology of the fact that I am identifying with the songs being sung by women. But maybe it is just the overarching themes of the songs.
I've posted this one before but I love it so much.
Sometimes I wish I could be the Rake. But I know that will never happen. I am too soft. But some people tell me that is a good thing.
I suppose I will finish with what I usually do when the depression strikes.